Are you out there a bit like me? I always have this need to be doing something, otherwise, if I rest for long, I feel guilty. Where the heck did that come from?
My father was as easy-going as a turtle in a hurry and my mother, ah! that’s where it comes from. Somehow now she has had to slow down a bit. Approaching 86, but she is always knitting, cooking, fixing things, throwing away things, mopping the floor, she is blessed with tiles throughout the whole apartment, and always something cooking in the pot.
It is sometimes difficult to be like this. I feel restless and is like living with Contessa A and Contessa B who is always watching over me and making me feel guilty if I slack a little. My own worst enemy is moi! I have read books, listened to tapes, watched shows, but it is getting worse as I become more mature and interesting. This need to be always on the go, and doing whatever.
I feel that walking inside the condo while I watch tv will help me with my circulation. Maybe am I afraid to get sick and die? That’s a possibility. I have noticed that I am very much interested in taking care of my body and my mind. But, on the other hand, I could convert into invisible energy right now, and I am just fine with it. This is a conundrum. Should I try to look further into it, or just go with the flow.
I just thought about it, this blog started with the pursuing need to do something with my time. Learning technology and putting out there my philosophy. Now, it is very difficult to disengage from this daily task.
Today is Sunday…I will go with the flow for today. Need a break from being too efficient.
So…it was today…9 October, 2011…another day of pondering why things are the way they are.
Your Happy Contessa
“I always do what I need to do when I need to do it.” A sentence I borrowed from a book called “What to say when you talk to Yourself.” It has been ingrained in my mind for almost thirty years. It means to me, “just move and do something.” No wonder!